I am still waiting for my Hogwarts letter to arrive so to distract myself from the agony of wondering if I got in i focus my energy on art history, as you will see.
You know how long we’ve known each other? 10 years. It’s been 10 years of fucking with one another’s hearts. Why can’t we just grow up and realize we need to try this or stop communicating all together. We half ass tried once and it never was established because I went away to school. I thought of you the whole time, wishing you had been there and those other guys. You’re a shitty person, at times, that I can’t seem to get away from because when you’re with me you’re not that shitty person everyone else sees. You’re a sweet, gentle, and wonderful person.
I’ve hit the point of not being able to handle this shit. It’s been 10 years of torture for me and I don’t want another 10 years of wondering. I want to be brave enough to speak up and say all of this, but I’m not. I want you to realize that I go to you after every relationship because I wish it had been you to begin with. There has only been one relationship where I never thought of you, but I ran to you the second it ended.
I don’t think the feelings will ever go away if we stopped communicating. There are little reminders of you in every part of my brain that I will never erase. Our memories together have been beyond incredible and I want to make more. You know how to annoy me and make me feel happy when I’m in my darkest moments with just a smirk and I hate you for that because you know it works.
I just wish I could figure out a way to say all of this better and directly to you.
Also it’s National Dog Day, so I felt the need to share with the interwebs world my dog. This is Orion. He’s not only my dog, but the reason I’m still here on this weird planet. Without him, I’m not entirely sure where I’d be. He is the reason I wake up every morning all because when I look at his alien lookin face, I feel happiness and love that no other human, besides my momma bear (I’d do anything for her), could ever give me. It is an unconditional bond of love that will never be broken. He fixed and filled the holes left in my heart by the previous relationship and the first puppy I owned. I owe this little guy my life and I will do nothing more than to give him the best life I can. Like right now he’s laying in the center of my bed, taking up as much room as possible, and I wouldn’t have it any other way, the little shit. I love you Orion.
I tend to overthink and just think about the weirdest things on the regular, but anything historical really gets my mind going. I blame my lack of history classes growing up, I never learned past the Industrial Revolution (that’s a public school education for you), so I always feel behind on things in documentaries. So here is the latest rambling thoughts that I’ve had;
While watching some documentary on the British Royals, they started talking about Princess Diana’s death and I don’t remember much from August 31, 1997 but I do remember the news talking about it and it was never really talked about much after that, until now.
I was unaware in my young naivety that she was killed in Paris. Since I had been to Paris, that led me to research the where-abouts in the city it occurred. I was saddened to see that it was a place that I walked and drove by a couple times and had no idea. The tunnel is visible from the Eiffel Tower and from boats on the Seine, both places that I had visited.
It’s strange to think that almost 18 years ago she was wandering around Paris, terrified of life due to the asshole paparazzis trying to find her, but I like to believe she’s in a better place now watching over her sons and their lives. Her life was definitely cut way too short and even though I wasn’t from her country, I still wish I had known that was where it happened. I would have laid a flower by the unofficial memorial statue, which is an exact replica of the flame that the Statue of Liberty holds. I’ll know to do it next time I’m in Paris.
My lack of sleeping has started yet again. I can trace it back to a dream I had a few nights ago, to that familiar face. He haunts my dreams every now and again. It’s been 6 years since I’ve seen him in person and even then we were divided. I just wish to know you’re okay Stephen. I want to know that you’re doing well and are happy. I mainly want to apologize for how things happened. I don’t even know where you are in this world or if you’re safe. I can only hope that someday you’ll reach out and find me again. So for now, please continue to haunt my dreams, i find comfort in seeing you there, smiling.
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Please sign this! These poor babies need our help!
Or we could like, not, because seeing those orcas is fucking amazing, have you people ever been to seaworld???
Your ignorance is clear on this subject. Have you ever seen the poor conditions they live in? Do you have any idea the things they suffer for your entertainment? I’m going to hazard a guess that, no, you have no idea.
All the experts in the marine biology field agree that the orca are not thriving in captivity. Their mortality rate is sickening- they live longer in the wild. Have you seen their teeth, among other things? Or rather, seen their lack of teeth? There are young baby orca at SeaWorld who have almost no teeth left because they are so stressed and bored out of their minds that they chew on metal and the sides of the tank. They break their teeth. They are not immune to pain, and if you’ve ever chipped one tooth in your life, you know tooth pain is one of the most awful things you can feel.
And SeaWorld has to drill out the centers of their teeth when they break and flush them out every day. Wild orca teeth don’t look like this! You might find a really old one that has a couple, over the course of its entire life depending on its ecotype and its specialized diet. But you wont find anything nearly so terrible as what happens to these poor creatures at SeaWorld.
You have no idea. You are protecting a company that claims better, world class vet care- But why do these animals need to be pumped full of medication constantly, things like vallium? Why is it SeaWorld uses a black zinc oxide to cover large rakes and sunburns, which basically paints them? Why does precious Sea World pay money to places like Mundo Marino, who keeps its orca in the most deplorable conditions you can imagine?
They Lie bold faced to the public, to people like you who think, ‘well, SeaWorld must know what its doing, right? They’d never lie to us!’ And that is what the uneducated public often thinks, however, the more of us that become edicated the less and less SeaWorld’s lies work. For instance…
They fight with one another, something that does not happen in the wild. They rip each other with their teeth, where in the wild, any disagreement between pod members would dissipate due to having enough space to keep out of each others way.
The Above orca’s name is Nakai. The injury took place during a show, where its seriousness was apparently missed because the orca actually had to finish the show before it was ‘discovered’ that he was hurt. Just recently an Orca Expert, Ingrid Visser, pointed out that the injury had orca tooth marks on it, and it is clear that this dinner plate sized wound was caused by Nakai being bitten. Injuries at SeaWorld happen far more frequently than you might think they do. Altercations between orca have even led to death.
The above is Kandu, who fought with Corky
Kandu V collided with Corky II leading to her death
Kandu V was a female Icelandic orca who was caught in 1977 and kept at
SeaWorld San Diego, California. She died on 21st August 1989 from a
collision after attempting to rake newcomer Corky II. Kandu was 14 years
old at the time and was mother to 11 month Orkid. Kandu had always been
the dominant female at SeaWorld San Diego.
The collision happened during a live show and several thousands of
spectators watched as Kandu bled to death. The fatal accident occurred
in the holding pool behind the main performance pool when Kandu
attempted to rake Corky. Raking is a way orcas show dominance by
forcefully scratching at another with their teeth, this happens a lot
within captivity and many of the orcas have visible rake marks. Very few
rake marks have been witnessed on wild orcas, this may be because
groups tend not to mix whereas in captivity many different types of
groups are made to live and perform together. Dr. James F. McBain, a
staff veterinarian at SeaWorld said of the accident, at the time, that
Kandu engaged in a “normal, socially induced act of aggression to assert her dominance over Corky”.
Kandu missed Corky as she attempted to rake her and ended up ramming
into a wall, rupturing an artery in her jaw and fracturing her upper
jaw, she began spouting blood from her blowhole. The people in the
stadium where quickly asked to leave. After a 45 minute hemorrhage Kandu
V died, the whole time she swam by her 11 month old calf, Orkid. Orkid was later placed with Corky.
Again, SeaWorld is caught in a lie. This was not normal behavior at all.
Notice something off? That’s right, that’s not normal. Captivity does nothing good for these animals, who have been proven to be sentient, self aware creatures that understand things the way we do.
Tekoa, one of the orcas separated from its mother way too early and shipped off to Loro Parque on ‘breeding loan’ (Read: experimenting with setting up shop in other countries) - But nonetheless, they claim breeding loan. Why, oh why, did SeaWorld send ALL RELATED ANIMALS on breeding loan, where they have made at least one inbred orca?
Why are SeaWorlds orcas, in this foreign facility, allowed to be torn to shreds?
When you support SeaWorld, you support every facility that keeps cetaceans.
(Whales and dolphins/porpoises etc)
Including Mundo Marino….
This is Kshamenk. You may be wondering why I would mention an orca that neither belongs to SeaWorld nor lives in its care. I mention Kshamenk because SeaWorld pays Mundo Marino to keep this beautiful orca in one of the most, if not the most deplorable conditions. Why? Because SeaWorld pays for Kshamenk‘s sperm. When you support SeaWorld your money goes to places like this! It spawns other countries to say, ‘wow! keeping these animals makes TONS OF MONEY!’ They don’t give a rats ass about these animals and they never have.
This is the pool he lives in.
The gates are closed, he does not have access to the show pool- Outside of shows.
He often floats upside down, defeated, bored out of his mind. You want to know how he came to be here? His family was forced - deliberately- to strand/beach themselves. Mundo marino waited a little while then came in and pretended to rescue them. They let one go, and took the rest. All died soon after, leaving Kshamenk alone.
If you pay to go to SeaWorld you paid for this. You paid for thousands of cetaceans (dolphins and whales) to be slaughtered- literally- in The Cove, in Taiji Japan. Even Sea World has bought dolphins (and I believe also pilot whales?) from the dolphin drives. Recently they tried to import a second generation dolphin born from parents taken from the drive and still support it! They also tried to get beluga whale sperm from DEAD beluga, to pay whaling groups and encourage them to kill more beluga. (They did not get that permit.)
But SeaWorld announced that huge realistic aquarium thing, right? LIES. Each year they push back the date of construction, because they have not yet even filed for the permits to build this new blue horizons or w/e its called. They said it as a publicity stunt, thinking it would draw in more people. It didn’t work for those of us investigating what SeaWorld is doing.
Please PLEASE use this opportunity to educate yourselves on this matter! If you believe what SeaWorld is saying, you are falling into their trap. Their stock is down, their attendance is dropping like flies. We have succeeded in ending further obtaining of cetaceans in canada, and now its time to spread it to USA.
We don’t want to release these animals into the wild- Their health, currently, along with broken teeth and psychosis means they can never be released. We are fighting to get them retired to open ocean sea pens, sanctuaries in the ocean where they no longer have to perform circus tricks for your entertainment. SeaWorld tries to say they do it for education, but their education is almost entirely tricks, routines and behaviors. Any information they give is largely false, or even outright lies.
I suggest also watching Blackfish and The Cove, slave to Entertainment, and A Whale of a Business.
These programs do not hold all the answers, but they are places to start. The anti captivity movement has been around since the very first capture. You can help our cause by signing this petition, and by spreading the word. My fellow anticaps please add more to this, I’m sure I’ve missed a lot of topics to cover but these were the most immediate things I could think of off the top of my head.
b3n3aththesurfac3 has a lot of videos of things going on at SeaWorld for those interested, including unnatural beaching and stranding behavior, and also discovered the notorious Dolphin Pox disease in dolphins in Orlando.
this makes me sad. not only because this man lost his life but because he served on the WASP, the same ship as my brother. I’m not sure if they ever crossed paths or even knew each other, but it hits home on just how dangerous it is to be in the military. I’m saddened that this act of domestic terrorism happened. RIP sailor.
